Oh my god how stupid am I

Well now I know.

His text when it came was stop wasting your time. So I went over. The mother of all rows later, I said loud enough for his daughter to hear about his telling me to have an abortion in the summer and then his pleasure in my miscarriage.

He went mad. So, I shall never see him again , ever , and he hates me. He is also staying with the other woman.

I wonder if she knows about all of the other girls he has phone sex with, the very dodgy web sites he visits.

All the time whilst telling her he loves her and misses her when he's not with her.

Lynda, wake up and smell the coffee, he's a worm! He will hurt every woman he meets. Including you sister!

I think I may have woken up myself tonight. I saw him in a whole new light. I even thought at one point he was going to hit me.
So, it's over.
Chapter closed.

Time to move on. SR is out of my life. He can get on his pride and joy, the silver Suzuki that means more to him than anyone, and go.

I need to move on. There has been a guy hanging around wanting to go for a drink so I may shock him and say yes. Classic rebound stuff huh?

I wasted 14 months on someone who treated me like dirt, I put up with his lies, his deceit, his other women, his porn sites. My god I'm worth more than that!! I even said I didn't mind if he had one night stands just so that he would stay with me, and in the end he didn't. So, no more doormat!


You see before you a woman who has remembered her confidence and will not be abused!

So on that note I shall cry into my pillow one last time and remember the good times from my dim and dark memory.

Tomorrow is another day!