First flush of lust....

What's that song..."I could have danced all night, ....." well, date number three went really rather well, I think I need a fourth though just to check....have to make that Thursday.....

I could have danced all night
I could have danced all night
And still have begged for more
I could have spread my wings
And done a thousand things
I'd never ever done before
I'll never know what made it so exciting
But all at once my heart took flight
I only know when he began to dance with me
I could have danced, danced, danced, danced, danced, danced
Bed? I couldn't go to bed
My head's too light to try to settle down
Sleep? I couldn't sleep tonight
Not for all the jewels in the crown!
I'll never know what made it so exciting
But all at once my heart took flight
I only know when he began to dance with me
I could have danced, danced, danced, danced all night

Ok Ok I know, it's lust and it will fade but it's great whilst it lasts, reality will kick in soon enough!

Random thoughts...

Saw the Welshman yesterday....sighs

Will it ever stop raining?

Why am I so tired?

How many calories in sultanas?

Do I want another cup of tea?

Why is there nothing on TV?

Why is my life so boring that I am wondering why there is nothing on TV on a Friday night?

What shall I cook my parents for dinner on Sunday...

Why does the Welshman blow hot and cold?

Tired

I don't know if it is because of broken sleep or if I'm just working too hard right no but I am so darn tired.

I've been keeping up the chirpy alway happy to help out persona for months now hoping nobody will notice that it is just an empty shell and the essence of me that used to be there is not present.

Nobody has said anything, I guess the shell is performing adequately, should I be worried? I still feel as if I am in some strange out of body experience, I hear the words that come out of my mouth, see the expressions changing on my face, smiling politely, looking concerned when required, laughing at jokes but I'm not present inside. Ever since E made the decision that He had to go back to look after His daughter and consequently the marital home I have been in this alternate universe where nothing reaches me.

School day

I had an assessment today at uni and passed! Don't know what score I got yet but at least it was a pass. I also got some advice on the assignment where I wasn't sure if I was on the right track.

I'm feeling really really tired today, I've not slept well recently, I'm not sure why it just seems I'm keep waking through the night. I've tried milky drinks and warm baths, early nights, reading before I turn out the light all sorts but still I'm restless.Hopefully it is just a phase.

The wanderer returns!

It has been such a busy week. I've been working in the south west most of last week and then returned home via foot and mouth country.

Work went well though, got everything done that needed to be done.

Had my mother's birthday party yesterday, as usual I was on my best behaviour. Always the way with my family get togethers. I am designated driver and there for everyone else to be smug about. The single daughter - the failure!

The man on the periphery turned out to be a dork. Nothing ever works out in my love life. I should have known better.

Shattered

After a 16 hour day yesterday culminating with a drive through the flood zones, it was a repeat performance today but without the drive.

After a full day I discovered that one of my colleagues has booked a meeting tomorrow different to the one scheduled. He always does this to me as he knows that I will put in all the hours god sends just so he can't be smarmy and patronising.

It always seems to be an I lose he wins situation, the man is a twonk!

Coffee man may be coming over Saturday, to see the new car and conservatory.... I'll leave that train of thought there, I don't know where to take it.

Dutchman is still missing...........

Productive day? No!

The day started really well today, I got loads done this morning and then the engineer arrived to do what was a simple job. Wrong! He took the whole broadband and rf system down, so from 2.30 I was twiddling my thumbs. At least all the filing is done now though. I didn't need a pc for that.

I went to the gym this evening and did circuit training. Everything hurts now and my inhaler has never been used as much. So that is 4 successive gym days, still not lost any weight though :(

Still no word from the Dutchman either.

Whirlwind

I awoke in one of those moods today. I had the bed stripped and laundered and all of the other bits and pieces washed and on the line. I went to the gym again (2 days running) came home and cleaned the house top to bottom, I spoke to my parents who were driving home from their holiday and invited them to dinner and then prepared a 3 course meal for them (and my brother who has been fending for himself for a week and was looking malnourished.)

So, I'm now tired and happy and off to bed.

Busy day

The day started very unsettled, I woke with a start, I had been dreaming that I was at some form of a dinner party in the middle of the street, I'm not sure where it was but the architecture was fabulous. Next thing I know I'm reading a letter or an e-mail, I'm not sure which, it was from the Dutchman saying that he had met someone and he was not coming back - ever, I ran away in tears and that's when I woke, still upset.

I pulled myself together and the workmen arrived. The conservatory is all finished now. It looks good. I brought the big desk downstairs (all by myself!) and laid the flooring too. It's really taken shape now.

I then went to the gym and did a couple of classes. I did bodybalance, bodyattack and bodypump. I now feel body weary!

I'm away with my parents at a family do this weekend then straight to Wales so I may be a while!

Still no word, I'm off to bed.

I think I'm going to die!

I've just had my gym programme review. Did I insult that man's mother? I look like a beetroot, I'm wobbling like a mad cow and starved, I have this craving for a squidgy cream cake!

I've just flumped to write this and Coffee Man text, first time in weeks so I've answered him, very light and airy.

The conservatory is lacking it's windows and roof but the framework is there. I've been out and got some flooring too.

I've pulled together some information for my assignment so all is well with the world, well almost. Still no word from the Dutchman :(

Sunday

I've just got in from an afternoon coffee with a friend, hmm 7 hours, oops, I never did get all my chores done. It was an interesting afternoon though.

Good job tomorrow is a Bank Holiday.

I'm really tired and I have a headache now so I'm off to bed,

Survived

Well I got through the 2 days with my least favourite colleague. He was a bit of a prat this morning because I turned a video on 17 seconds early!!! But he apologised this afternoon. Then he told a delegate that it was the first time I had run the course so I had done quite well, he didn't mention that I had completely rewritten it from his original! He makes me so cross but I bit my tongue and let him take the credit.

I'm back at the hotel and can chill out tonight as I don't have to prep for tomorrow. So I've ordered a nice dinner and glass of wine.

I thought I would see if I could get a connection and update as I had a moment or three.

Time to flump!

Mixed Feelings

Well, the day was half bad as expected but not the half I thought. I thought the morning would be ok but it was awful and the afternoon that I was dreading (management accounts and statistics) went really rather well. Strange.

So, I'm off for an early night again ready for the trials and tribulations of tomorrow.

Sooo weary

Well yesterday went ok but I didn't sleep much the night before, I was up and down checking for snow most of the night. I looked at 3 for the last time and it was clear, when I got up at 4:30 there was 3 inches!
So, I pulled on my sweat pants and went out and cleared the car, came back in and had a hot coffee. By the time I left at 5:15 the car was covered again! By this time I was in my new brown suit and cream silk blouse, so I was gingerly trying to clear it again with an old baggy coat on and not get creased or wet.

Driving conditions were horrid, really quite scary. At that time of the morning I was the first car out and living on a hill it was not fun. Driving along by braille, when I could feel cats eyes or kerb strips I was moving over.

The day was long but informative but I was so tired by the time I got home at 11pm. I just jumped into the bath then straight into bed.

I still managed to be at my desk by 7 this morning and got loads done. I have to go and look at new cars tomorrow - exciting - the good thing about having a company car, the bad thing is the amount of tax I have to pay.

I'm going to look with my dad and collect some brochures and then Coffee Man should be up (he is working tonight) and he wants to have a look too.

He has asked if I want to go to the pictures in the evening, just the two of us :)