Doing FINE

A perceptive friend gave me this definition of what someone really means when they say "it's ok I'm fine"

F ucked up
I nsecure
N eurotic
E motional

Damn her!

Home Sweet Home

Guess what? There was no connection. But then what can you expect from a hotel in the centre of London hmmmm....

Work has been fun in a masochistic sort of way. My colleague who should have been with me yesterday cancelled at the last minute so I ended up monitoring three meetings in three rooms at the same time. The afternoon session that she was going to take (her specialist area not mine) I had to muddle through the best I could. The delegates were great though and we had fun over the two days. I even got an e-mail from one of the guys this morning thanking me as he had learned loads and it was one of the best courses he had ever been on :)

I got lots of texts from Coffee Man, telling me that she was struggling on the course she was taking and don't forget to call her. Today's was can you pick up some bits for when you come over tomorrow and she doesn't think she's passed her exam. That was in response to the question 'do you want me to bring quilts and pillows too or just the sheets and covers?' He never did answer that question, poor lamb, he's just so worried about her!

I decided to check if my phone was actually working, he text back that it was and why was I asking, I responded that as he wasn't answering questions I thought it may not be, he assured me it was and he was just busy. The thing is I am running around sorting stuff out for him as he is best man on Saturday at his mate's wedding, I am (apparently) driving them to the wedding and arranging somewhere for him to sleep tomorrow as Coffee Man has no spare bedding.

If he wants me to do all this he had better start talking, but then as she is coming home and she did fail the exam maybe he won't.

I don't know why I'm feeling so sensitive tonight. Being high maintenance I suppose. He will tell her and she will have a quiet word with me about not being so demanding as he is who he is and will never change, and I remind him of his ex wife when I'm behaving like this.

Maybe it's because she hasn't been around much these last couple of weeks, only at weekends, and I know that she's coming home today. Getting apprehensive.

Grossed out on digestives

I am really cross with myself, I went into the exam this afternoon quite confident, but then sat down, read the compulsory question and my mind left the building. I could not remember the most basic of things. The minute I left the room it came flooding back. So resits here we come.

I spoke to a colleague who I had entrusted a piece of equipment too before I went on study leave and he called me today to tell me he had put it down somewhere and it had been stolen.

So a really good day!

The one bright part was that on my return home I checked my e-mail and I got a credit for the last assignment I posted, funnily enough the one I had the exam in today.

Not spoken to Coffee Man at all although he did text to wish me luck. Back to the inconsistency.

Mixed Feelings

Well, the day was half bad as expected but not the half I thought. I thought the morning would be ok but it was awful and the afternoon that I was dreading (management accounts and statistics) went really rather well. Strange.

So, I'm off for an early night again ready for the trials and tribulations of tomorrow.

Exams tomorrow

Mini blog.


I'm stressed, very stressed.

Can't remember anything for the exams.

Feeling very unloved - he has been with her all weekend. I didn't get a goodnight - he was out partying. He said hello by text from her place today at 2pm.

So, I'm going for an early night.

New PC

It was too late to post an entry last night. I picked up my new PC, (the old one although new was not working properly so I had to exchange it) so I spent the evening getting it all reset up. What a pain in the butt!

The new pc has Vista on it which of course was incompatible with my sevice provider so I had to jump through hoops to sort it.

It was back to the books again today, I am streaming with cold and supposed to be going to the gym tomorrow but don't think I will make it. Then it is study group with the girls ready for the dreaded day on Monday.


I've not seen Coffee Man since Thursday and after the warmth and closeness early in the week I'm feeling a little distant from him tonight. When he rang he had me on speaker phone as he is going out tonight. He has been over at his other female friend's today and is going back tomorrow. Just when I was feeling secure BAM.