Emotionally retarded

I was listening to this song on the radio today, it's an old one I've known all my life, and it served to remind me how emotionally retarded I am.

I'm still dating but can feel myself pulling back, finding reasons to bolt, running scared

If You Could Read My Mind

If you could read my mind love
What a tale my thoughts could tell.

Just like an old time movie'
Bout a ghost from a wishing well.
In a castle dark or a fortress strong
With chains upon my feet.
You know that ghost is me.

And I will never be set free
As long as I'm a ghost that you can't see.

If I could read your mind love
What a tale your thoughts could tell.

Just like a paper back novel
The kind the drugstores sell.
Then you reached the part
Where the heartaches come
The hero would be me.
But heros often fail

And you won't read that book again
Because the ending 's just too hard to take!

I'd walk away like a movie star
Who gets burned in a three way script.
Enter number two:
A movie queen to play the scene
Of bringing all the good things out of me.

But for now love let's be real;

I never thought I could feel this way
And I've got to say that I just don't get it.

I don't know where we went wrong
But the feelin's gone
And I just can't get it back.

If you could read my mind love
What a tale my thoughts could tell.
Just like an old time movie
'Bout a ghost from a wishing well.
In a castle dark or a fortress strong
With chains upon my feet.

But stories always end
And if you read between the lines
You'd know that I'm just
Tryin' to understand the feelin's that you (I) lack.

I never thought I could feel this way
And I've got to say that I just don't get it.
I don't know where we went wrong
But the feelin's gone
And I just can't get it back!